I know I know, I've been avoiding life lately. It's true. I simplified my life as much as possible as we prepared to experience our 2nd Christmas without Joshua. We prepared the best we could, I found a beautiful lit angel and surrounded the outside with lights.
We bought presents and put them under the tree and held our breath. I have to say I surprised myself with my ability to "keep it together" for the sake of our girls. We made the choice to stay at home and not spend the holidays travelling to be with extended family...that was a wise choice.
The rest of the holidays went fine.....I know that's not very descriptive, but it's the best I can do. We made it through...had some laughs, had some tears, saw some good movies, and made it through. Even escaped for a long weekend and visited with my brother and his family.
My brother has been a rock in my world over the last year...I'm not saying I'm surprised, I'm saying I'm so grateful to have someone who knows me so well that I look up in a moment of need, and he is there. I feel the need to talk, and the phone rings...it's my brother. I am in a wicked mood and want to be nasty...I call my brother..he's used to it, been that way for over 40 years now.
We also celebrated my birthday....not so exciting other than I am now typing on my brand new laptop thanks to my darling hubby, though I have to ask, is this kinda like receiving a vacuum or blender? hmmmm
The big event came as we celebrated 18 years of motherhood.....Brittany turned 18!!!! I wish I could say it's hard to believe, but it's been a long 18 years..not complaining, just been involved in every minute over the last 18 and I am so grateful I have this sweet young woman in my life.
Now that we are in 2012, I have some choices ahead....I was not able to wish anyone a Happy New Year.. I'm just not there this year, but perhaps over the next 12 months, my heart will mend enough to begin enjoying those magical moments waiting ahead such as watching my oldest walk across the stage to receive her diploma, followed shortly at summer's end by leaving her at college and not looking back for fear of her seeing my complete meltdown.
I truly do hope to someday on the sooner side be able to add a "Happy" to the hope of a new year, and to get there I will look for that moment in everyday where you can find a smile. For now it will be a hopeful "May you find a happy moment in every day this year".
Hugs,
Sherri
We bought presents and put them under the tree and held our breath. I have to say I surprised myself with my ability to "keep it together" for the sake of our girls. We made the choice to stay at home and not spend the holidays travelling to be with extended family...that was a wise choice.
The rest of the holidays went fine.....I know that's not very descriptive, but it's the best I can do. We made it through...had some laughs, had some tears, saw some good movies, and made it through. Even escaped for a long weekend and visited with my brother and his family.
My brother has been a rock in my world over the last year...I'm not saying I'm surprised, I'm saying I'm so grateful to have someone who knows me so well that I look up in a moment of need, and he is there. I feel the need to talk, and the phone rings...it's my brother. I am in a wicked mood and want to be nasty...I call my brother..he's used to it, been that way for over 40 years now.
We also celebrated my birthday....not so exciting other than I am now typing on my brand new laptop thanks to my darling hubby, though I have to ask, is this kinda like receiving a vacuum or blender? hmmmm
The big event came as we celebrated 18 years of motherhood.....Brittany turned 18!!!! I wish I could say it's hard to believe, but it's been a long 18 years..not complaining, just been involved in every minute over the last 18 and I am so grateful I have this sweet young woman in my life.
Now that we are in 2012, I have some choices ahead....I was not able to wish anyone a Happy New Year.. I'm just not there this year, but perhaps over the next 12 months, my heart will mend enough to begin enjoying those magical moments waiting ahead such as watching my oldest walk across the stage to receive her diploma, followed shortly at summer's end by leaving her at college and not looking back for fear of her seeing my complete meltdown.
I truly do hope to someday on the sooner side be able to add a "Happy" to the hope of a new year, and to get there I will look for that moment in everyday where you can find a smile. For now it will be a hopeful "May you find a happy moment in every day this year".
Hugs,
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