It's 4 am and I am WIDE AWAKE!!! Yikes!
Britt is almost through her first week of college and seems
to be adjusting. She’s a bit lonely, but
time will bring friendships and cafeteria buddies. Her drop off was only a major ordeal because
we were 1 of 4,000 families grabbing the same elevators to get moved into
smallish rooms with bad furniture.
Lucky for us, only the polite crowds showed up on our vators.
I would like to have counted all the hefting around and step
climbing as a "work out" but I forgot my pedometer so I have no proof
or idea how far we walked. My legs kept
telling me it was a lot though.
All the while we were at OU, I kept thinking about how much
Josh would love seeing the football players we saw. While we were in the
bookstore, there was a wall of these
huge moving mountains getting their books and I could see in them what he would have likely resembled in a few short
years. Those kind of thoughts when they hit just get me riled and ticked
off!
Once we got Britt settled in and unpacked, it was time for
our tearful goodbyes. While I was
prepared to totally lose it on her, Brad beat me to it. By the time it was my turn, it was actually a
bit anticlimatic since I was all cried out watching them. I was like "Bye kid, see ya in
October."
Ok, maybe I've slightly exaggerated, but as I said goodbye I
went back to Britt on her first day of kindergarten. While many moms followed their child's bus
with tears streaming, I was thrilled to have her enjoy her first day. Once I put her safely on the bus, it was like, "Anyone wanna
go to Starbucks to celebrate? My child's
on a new adventure today!"
I always think of these moments like that Disney commercial
where the little girl exclaims "I've been waiting my whole life for
this!" We found photos of
Brittany's 4th birthday party and in the background on the television was the
move "Twister" which inspired her to go to school to be a "storm
chaser". She truly has been waiting
her whole life for this!
My friends are concerned.
They have either called or written to help me get through this seemingly
traumatic change in my world. They feel I
must really be terribly upset that less than two years after my youngest gained
his wings, my oldest is so far away at college.....honestly,
I don't feel it yet. I know I will hear
all about it, and will experience this new chapter through her eyes. That makes me very happy. The real trial will be the call with tears on
the other end and I can't reach through and pull her to me. When that happens, look out world, mama Bear
is on the rampage!
While I truly appreciate that so many friends are worried
about me now that Britt is at college, I was so grateful for the one who caught
on to what has really been bothering me.
Stephi home alone!
Never mind that she was not supposed to be the last one at
home. Never mind that there were
supposed to be four plates at the table, not three. We don't even outnumber the toilets in our
house anymore. That alone makes me
sad...I loved coming home from a road trip and everyone running to a bathroom
with one person having to wait for a turn.
Now there is an extra one. Who would ever think toilets could make you
sad?!
I have to admit that Stephi doesn't seem to be bothered as
much as I am. In fact, she seems to be
handling it beautifully. She doesn't
have to share the car with her sister, run her brother around, or even put up
with either of their aggravations, though I'll bet you, she would happily do as
much running as Josh needed and wishes he was here to tattle on.
Brad and I have noticed how big the house suddenly feels and
how it's quiet, too quiet here. So much
change does make ya wonder what you're gonna do with your life and how you
lived before you had kids. We have two
years of enjoying Stephi and all that she does, though our participation is
somewhat limited since she now drives and is truly 16 going on 29!
So, here’s to yet another chapter of life unrevealed, and one I
hope is truly uneventful for a bit... I am
happy to turn on my skype and live my life vicariously through my girls for a little while.
Hugs to you all during this busy school season!
Sherri
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