Yesterday morning was just plain freezing! My mind
was racing with things to do before I walked out the door; There were breakfast casseroles to put in the
oven, event signs to put in the trunk, balloons and helium tanks added to the
mix, and of course I had to fit my morning coffee in there.
Brad was runnin’ around reacting to my “nicely shouted
instructions". Before long, Britt and
Stephi were in motion while my mom and dad came down freshly showered and ready
for what the day would bring.
815: Brad, Stephi and
I were behind schedule, but we were on our way.
We pulled into a parking lot full of familiar faces buzzing around
setting up for the day’s event. The 2nd
Annual Joshua Newman 5K Run/Walk for Epilepsy and SUDEP Awareness was moments
away.
I was in business mode….the car barely stopped before I jumped
out giving directions to all the teenagers buzzing about. Oh how, I LOVED seeing Joshua’s friends
there!! The first year of Joshua’s death
it was so very hard to see them, but not this year. Here they were…high school freshmen, peach
fuzz and razor stubble, broad shoulders and deepening voices. Yes it did bring a moment of deep longing to
hear my own freshman’s voice.
I handed things to them, hugged them and let them know
how beautiful they were. I immediately realized I just called teenage boys beautiful
so I added “in a handsome kind of way”.
They all laughed and let me know it was ok if I thought they were
beautiful.
Co-Chairs Jenna and Natalie, Joshua’s classmates who started
this whole thing 2 ½ years ago were buzzing around getting things in place. It’s
amazing what all these young kids have done.The Auxiliary Police Event Safety Team aka tshirt patrol (police officers who only accept a free event tshirt for their services) arrived right on cue so I made sure I met each of them and introduced myself. “Hi, I’m Sherri, I’m Joshua’s Mom”.
Joshua's "Uncle Jerrold" and his swing dancer troupe show their support. |
When it was time to say a few words of thanks, I honestly can’t
remember much of what I said. How do you
put pain, loss, joy, deep appreciation and love into words? I tried to come up with a few words the night
before but nothing came to me, so as I looked out at the crowd I shared with
them what was on my heart. How hard it is without
Joshua three years later, and how we were so glad they were here. I shared how much it helps heal my family’s
heart to participate in this event which has an immediate impact on helping
others with epilepsy, then I explained the faces they saw on a poster 25 feet
to our left were faces of kids who received monitors from last year’s race
proceeds.
That’s all I remember.
I’m usually more gathered, more in control, but today it’s not there.
Team Jeff led by Allison Austin |
"Jeff’s Wife" aka Allison was there leading Team Jeff. Their two boys have grown so much in the last
year. Allison lost her husband, Jeff, to SUDEP months after we lost Josh.
I admitted to the crowd earlier that I fell down one
cottinpickin step and hurt my ankle last week so I was now the official hugger. It was really fun greeting them as they
crossed the finish line. Several new
faces came by so I hugged, fist bumped mitten to mitten; the familiar faces
received encouragement tongue in cheek.
“Wow, do you need oxygen?" "I
didn’t know people could sweat that much!" "
You young things, please show me one drop of sweat so I know you really ran 5K in 17
minutes," "Hey Big Ironman Athlete, at
least 20 little kids beat you across the finish line…Congratulations!” Yes, I threw in my whoop whoops, and you’re
doing great!
One of Joshua's friends nears the finish line! Go John!! |
There was a group of swing dancers who ran the event and
then started dancing to the music. The
mood was uplifting.
In 90 minutes, it was over!
200 people gradually said their goodbyes, strong teenagers lifted heavy
things in my car, tables were folded and the parking lot returned to a parking
lot.
We invited Tom, and our planning committee over for a simple
brunch immediately following so they could finally meet face to face. The casseroles were brown and bubbly, coffee
brewed, and lots of laughter was heard throughout the house. It was a glorious day in Joshua’s name!
Joshua Newman 5K Committee 2013 |
Afterwards, as I unloaded the cars, I took some of the left
over animal balloons to new neighborhood families and introduced myself, “Hi
I’m your neighbor, Sherri, and I thought your kids might enjoy these balloons
made in memory of a great ornery boy named Joshua.”
Hugs,
Sherri
Love your courage to do all of the above, with joy and energy. So good. Josh is proud.
ReplyDeleteKaren, thank you so much! I appreciate your support. I sure hope he's proud. Look forward to that day when he can tell me face to face. Hugs!
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