My life has been one big rollypollyupsidedownspinningdroppingbulletquick rollercoaster ride these last few months since Joshua passed away. One second I'm peacefully trying to climb the hill, the next I'm upside down and don't even know what hit me. Although I love rollercoasters, I realize there is a time to get off the ride and rest before the next one. Unfortunately, this rollercoaster won't stop. I have sought remedies in many nooks and crannies...I can just imagine where some of your thoughts take you in response to this statement. (shame on some of you! lol)
I have searched through dozens of books, listened to music of all genres, visited with my local grief counselor, attended support groups and bible studies, and yet the only place I seem to find some peace and quiet is with Madea!
For those who don't know...Madea is a ficticious 'Mad Black Woman' whose life is surrounded by chaos and ugliness, much of which is her own fault, but through is all she never strays far from the God that gave ya what he gave ya. Luuurrd Be Praised..Oh did I mention that Madea is actually a man? Madea is played by the writer who created her, Tyler Perry....so now you know I have gone off the deep end, I have turned to a drag queen for peace and inspiration.
Madea has managed to shoot at people, get sent to jail, and run her big ole caddy through the drive thru window when the girl at the drive-thru sassed her....Madea don't do sassing! The perfect mentor right?
Though comedic, there is always a moral to the story with God peeking through as a natural part throughout. One scene that recently struck home was when the character played by Cicely Tyson shares with a young woman about the loss of her beloved husband. While the young woman sympathizes, Cicely stops her and reminds her of how beautifully blessed she is to have had the chance to love a man like that in her life.
That is something that sticks with me. I have been divinely blessed to be given the gift to carry that child for 10 months, raise him and his sisters with all my heart, and build years of cherished memories among all the chaos. I am better for having him in my life and even now that he is gone, his legacy continues as he teaches me new things everyday.
It has taken a lot to help me realize those gifts bestowed upon me and Madea's simple stories have touched my broken heart reinforcing how lucky I truly am.
Is it any wonder that I seek the company of those who are genuine in their faith? Those who wear the wounds of life both seen and unseen who are still able to whole heartedly praise God and be a hoot to spend time with?
This is not the path I would have chosen, but it is what it is and while it may take a little while I know my adventurous spirit and daring suburban mom ways will prevail.
May you be hugged in the sunshine and warmth of Love!
Hugs!
Sherri
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